| | | car accident... crash, survival, the drama it's one thing to be glad that you just survived a terrible accident without visible physical injuries, but to have people give u more grief.
i borrowed mike's car that january 18, 2007 because i was late for school and my car ran out of gas. i didnt have time to get gas, so mike let me drive his car in the meantime.
i was northbound on the 5 freeway barely approaching commerce. the traffic started to slow down so i did as well. it was then that i noticed a white truck approaching me at a fast through my rear view mirror.
i braced myself for the hit, it was inevitable and then, slam! i tried to avoid the car in front of me so i tried to swerve towards the left, but it was much too fast. i remember slamming onton the steering wheel two times. bebe flew from the back seat to the front windshield, my poor baby. she whined and went to the back seat while i was crying. i couldnt stop. i was so upset about the accident but i was also relieved that i survived without crazy injuries.
luckily the CHP was within reach of us so he controlled the traffic immediately. my whoel body was shaking, i never felt so shakey in my life. i felt weak. in complete shock.
i called michael right away. then my lawyer. then i tried calling my sisters.
i was so terrified. but i didnt expect the worst to come later...
i have never in my life felt so insulted by someone's reaction in my life. instead of asking about my condition, all they cared about was the car's condition, and why i was driving mike's car...
the car drama really opened my eyes about people. its sad that the people u really thought would be humble, sincere, caring, would be the complete opposite. like my mom said, when the house is on fire, the mouses run out. the true faces are revealed. i'm hurt. i dont want to feel like i lost respect and love for them, but i guess i sorta lost faith.
our relationship is now on the brinks of survival. it's quite upsetting that a relationship might not survive because parents and family relations are getting in the way.
i guess in time we will see... if they really do care, or is it their stress taking over their words and feelings. either way, i'm not so sure if i should keep coming up with excuses for them.
there's no excuse really, if that's the way you are.
now, my neck is swelling, my head is bruised all over the place, and my nerves are inflammed... i feel crappy, but i'm really glad i survived and that i have family and friends who cherish my existence and health.
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